D-day

06:54 AM
I woke up couple of times at night as I usually do and finally stood up at 05:45. A glance out of the window and a check on how I am feeling told me that it's going to be a good day. Now, don't get me wrong here. I am not an enteral optimist. I do envy those kind of people and sometimes they irritate me, but I am definitely not one of thrm myself. So, I know already in the morning when the day is not so good and I am taking it as it is. But today has a good vibe in it and the world outside the window seems also pretty convinced about it. 
I showered twice as I was instructed. I ate my last supper at 15 o'clock yesterday and used my last nicotine pad at 21. My instructions where not to eat or use tobacco or anything else after midnight so I was well ahead of the schedule.

I strolled down to the surgical department C7 at 0640 and was met by a nurse called Nina.
She showed me the room and gave me the weird blue clothes. There was a man asleep so we had to whisper. I really like whispering and I think we should do that more often (like generally). I am still nr.2 in the list of today's operations which means that I have about 4 hours to kill before things are getting interesting. Its okey, I brought a book. I actually finished one yesterday, but was smart enough to bring 2 books. I will post if something happens. Thank you for all the support and good vibes, thoughts and prayers. Ta-ta!




Kl 11:35

Still waiting. I got a male nurse now. He is danish. A nurse student came an practiced sticking me, there was success on third try and now I got an IV water supply. They want to drop a whole liter in me, before the surgery. Nobody still knows the exact time for the procedure, so it's kind of dull, but I have been sleeping a lot and am not anxious at all. 

Kl 12:08
Its a no-go today. Appearently a doctor got sick or something so the surgery is postponed to tomorrow. Well...waiting is a thing... Anyway. I got some food and changing back to my usual clothes again. Again... thank you for thinking of me. This really helps, so make sure you do that whenever someone close, dear or cool is in difficult situation- just send good vibes, happy thoughts and mostly LOVE! 


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